As I entered my final year at the Retreat Center, I thought back to the beginning. Being in a bad place forced me to soul search and I realized martial arts was the only fulfilling part of my life. I loved training and I taught at YMAA Andover, Chinese School Andover on Sundays, the Chinese After-School Program 3 times a week, and private lessons. It made sense to be drawn to the 5 Year Full-Time Program at the YMAA Retreat Center. Was I crazy? How was I going to afford the tuition? Would I thrive in the environment?